For the first time in a long time (maybe ever?), I’m sitting in a coffee shop in peace. And one of my children is with me, sleeping in a stroller, but with me. It almost seems too good to be true…
And then there’s me, in the comfy chair, in my white, coffee stained shirt that screams “I’M A MOM!” as loud as it possibly can. Yes, I’m clumsy…but hopefully not the only mom to splash coffee on herself while pushing a stroller.
But as I’m sitting here enjoying this bit of much needed peace in my day (before I go home and clean like a crazy person), it got me thinking. Thinking about life, and what mine has become. Granted, I wouldn’t want to trade mine in for the world — I have my love (4 years married today, 8.5 years in total — holy shit!), two amazing, healthy, genious (or so I like to think) munchkins, a career path in the making, the most amazing family + friends…what more could I want?
But I can’t help but think about how it could somehow be different. What I have and haven’t (yet) done with my life. How different my life could be, what would have happened if I ended up with some other guy?! All these questions popped into my head for whatever reason. I mean, when did life suddenly turn into Starbucks trips made peaceful by a sleeping three year old? It went so quickly from young twenty-something, to Mom. I complain about balancing house + school work, the kids being bad sometimes, and my biggest complaint of all — not seeing my husband enough because he works like a maniac.
But then my crazy head takes a completely different spin, and I start thinking about how blessed I am. The silly questions in my head, gone. And I can’t help but chuckle at how Abby (notice the new spelling? Yeah she didn’t like the way ‘IE’ looked when I wrote it for her last week) and Liam are becoming these adorable little people, or how Ryan calls me his “pint and a half” on almost a regular basis, or how a day doesn’t go by that I don’t at the least talk to my parents, or how I have this little blog that people actually read and have given me some amazing friendships. And I realize how blessed I am to have those little luxuries in life. I can’t help but say thanks.…
And thanks for reading this post that was more of a rambling 
Over the past month (okay, more like almost two — who am I kidding?) I’ve really slacked off here at my blog. I hadn’t been feeling the whole interwebz…lack of motivation in combination with recent stress of my own, I suppose. So where’ve I been, what’ve I been up to? Not a lot, but I’ll bullet-ize to make to keep from over boring your (although, I might anyway) heads off…
- Work. Work has been hectic, both for the hubby & I. The couple days that I worked were crazy busy because of a big state tournament, which resulted in A LOT of thirsty, frustrated bowlers. And pretty much every hour that I wasn’t working, R has been there. So not only have I been left with the kidlets on my own a lot, it also means that there hasn’t been a whole lot of “just us” play time. Do you know what that can do? Do you?! Anyway, it’s been a crazy few weeks in that sense…which isn’t helping the whole stress level.
- Cooking. I’ve been putting a lot of time into cooking lately, both because I love it & it calms my nerves. I’ve been whipping up a lot of soups (I’ve always wanted my own little soup place — think Soup Nazi-ish, got it? Okay…) along with some dishes for L. I’ve been keeping a record of both the soups, and the allergy-free dishes I’ve been making, and am hoping to get some sort of online collective/food blog about them. We’ll see how that ends up, haha!
- The Gym. So Westbrook now has a corporate discount over at Bally’s, so I’m taking full advantage. Not only am I paying an awesome $24 a month, I scored an awesome deal of personal training sessions (24 for $399). I realize that it might sound a little crazy to spend that much money, but it’s totally worth it to me. I need to get my butt in shape, and unfortunately I need the motivation of a) a trainer and b) not being able to slack off because I in fact paid for this, and will be wasting a crap load of dough if I don’t do it. So operation get hot & run a marathon is now underway. I’ve also joined the wonderful folks over at In It to Gym It! to share & motivate myself along this fun journey…
- Various events/random things. Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve had some various get togethers planned. Bacholerette parties, weddings, school reunions (HS Bowling FTW!). The few spare minutes that I’ve had, have still been tied up doing something. I’m exhausted! I’ve also been trying to put more effort into my photography. I want to start my own business of some sort, so I’ve been experimenting with different thing to really get my portait/child photog skills moving along…
I think that’s about it? Not all that interesting, I know. But I’m back, and I’m working on tweaking this Thesis theme — I’m still not satisfied with some aspects.…
